i am shrinking in the light. spinning smaller as the fusion of atoms become molecules. fading into brilliance. bleaching into the upholstery. the sand that was fused into the windshield passes me at the speed of light, the particles as big as asteroids in some unknown belt. i navigate with memory. using the sunspots as reference points. homeward bound at the speed of sound. traveling in a white light as cold as the most distant star song even sung.